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17/10/2024
THE AWFUL TRUTH
By Reno Mcgreggor Connelly
You said I was the toxic one, dragged my name in dirt;
You speak about me like I’m just another abusive ex.
It makes me wonder about those who came before,
The stories you told me, the desperation I saw in them-
Were they really that toxic? Was I? Or is it you?
Was it toxic of me to agree to take in your kid sister?
The one who threatened us and stole my stuff?
You said your parents would pay for everything-
We both worked in SAIP, we could handle anything,
All we had to do is get her through high school
But after a year, my life savings were gone
Along with our dreams of buying a house and farm.
Was I the toxic one when you hit me in front of her?
Screamed in my face while I hurried to gather
What little you left me with, what little was left of me?
Was I toxic when I wanted to foster an orphaned child
And you agreed, but pulled out in the middle of the process?
You broke our would-be daughters’ heart;
You said you were already jealous of her and that
Two minds with BPD couldn’t coexist in one house.
She was just a kid with nothing and no one
And you abandoned her after giving her hope.
You made me break her heart, then blamed me for it all;
I had already gotten her room ready, bought her clothes-
She had a pile of Christmas presents from my mother
That she had to open alone in the psych ward
After being told we (you) didn’t want her anymore.
You threatened me with divorce if I stayed out late
Or forgot to do the dishes or keep the house pristine.
If I was ever upset at you, you always upped the ante.
You’d bring up some issue from years ago and fume
Until you were the angry one and I was apologizing.
You trained me like a dog, you realize that?
Pavlovian conditioning from day one to year nine-
You only treated me well if I was happy and funny and stable.
I was the rock so that you could be the storm
And over time, I eroded away into mud and sand.
You were always the hero and always the victim;
How many times did you say these words:
“I don’t do anything wrong, all our problems are on you”?
How many red flags did I ignore on account of your disorder?
The day you gave up on our couples counseling
Was the day our therapist made you be accountable
And the moment you saw yourself how you really are
You knew you had to leave, get away, escape (from what?)
I always loved you through your BPD cycles;
I weathered storm after storm after storm after storm
And when I told you I couldn’t and wouldn’t take any more-
When I said that I was going to leave-
You got real quiet, then reassured me over and over,
Wrote me a letter saying you wouldn’t leave or hurt me,
That you’d try to protect me from yourself…
And now I know that after you said all those things,
You went and met a rich, middle-aged man on Tinder
Fifteen years my senior but with a house and doctorate
And wealth to buy you anything you want.
You waited until your words set in and I felt safe
Then you divorced me via text, with a link to a song
(an anthem for the moment you abandoned me).
You made sure to tell me about the new man
And how it was my fault that you went to him
And how he also dreamed of a farm and homestead
The same dream we had been chasing for years.
You went to my family and my closest friends
Before I had a chance to talk to any of them.
You knew each member of my support system
Found them, lied to them, cried to them
And when I came to them for help I was met with
“I don’t want to pick sides, I don’t know who to believe”.
You isolated me and then went no-contact
Until you had my cat put down, then you called
But just to let me know she was going to die-
You wouldn’t even let me say goodbye.
It’s been months now and I’ve heard all the stories,
The ones you’ve been telling people and posting online.
People can believe what they want, I sleep fine at night
Knowing that you know the truth of it all deep down and
That you can’t run from yourself forever and
That the truth will come like the dawn:
All the lies you’ve told to yourself will burn away like mist
And you’ll be left alone with just yourself and
The awful truth.
ABOUT THE POEM: "I wrote this poem after a devastating post-divorce therapy session. I endured nearly a decade of emotional abuse from a woman who I believe is truly a good, kind-hearted soul. She had borderline personality disorder and wasn’t really working on coping with it. I didn’t know much about the disorder until after the divorce and after doing much research, everything made sense. It was a very difficult relationship but education and counseling could have made all the difference. I just didn’t know until it was too late. Consider it a cautionary tale."
ABOUT RENO: Reno is 29 and works as an Autism Specialist in Portland, Oregon. He has previously worked in Secure Adolescent In-Patient (SAIP) and with some of the most traumatized kids in the state. He saw and experienced enough in SAIP to have been diagnosed with his own PTSD. He writes as a coping skill, and so he doesn't forget.
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