Featured Poet - Maria Nemy Lou Rocio


SHADOW OF HATE


In her desolation lies beneath

The monstrous pain of deceit

Clenching her with its wicked teeth

She wonders if there is any escape


She closes her eyes but was taunted

Of the darkness swallowing her image

She tries to hide, pulls a faded blanket

Only for fear creeping like a savage


Her heartbeat roaring like thunder

Gasping for breath, suffocating

Hatred mocked her for winning

Numbness follows and all tastes bitter


Crushed, broken, she's lost in the vast

Groping for every little hope, faith and love

To rise and continue her wanderlust

Before her weakness buries her alive



SUICIDAL


I am in my solitude

Embraced by stillness

Engulfed by the darkness

Drowned by my tears


I am in my solitude

My heart is aching

My soul is searching

My mind is wanting


I am in my solitude

At the edge of a cliff

Heart shakened, mind rattled

Knees shaking, losing grip


I am in my solitude

Counting my last hours

Grasping my minutes

Holding on to my last seconds


If my sun will never rise

And if my heart will never beat

Please let me leave in peace and be,

In my solitude


CRYING IN THE RAIN


With heaviness walk, walk free

Under the rain, let your tears fall

For nobody will see from your eyes

The pain hiding from a smile


Let a beat up heart pound harder

On accord with every drop of water

Find comfort in every ripple it makes

Just flow, let it flow, to ease the burden


Soon the rain, like sorrow, it won't last

It may bring coldness, after it pours

Numbness even when it's gone

Leaving only traces of what has been


Dry your tears and smile again

It's a tough world but your tougher

Embrace and love yourself more

'Coz you are priceless, you are worth it. 


BE STILL


Shimmering stars from the sky

Sprinkle stardust on a solitary soul

Seeking solace on solitude

Screaming silent sorrows

Scarcely healing scars

Saying starlight, starbright

Shine oh shine for me tonight!

Sitting stiffly at an edge

Save me from suicidal sea


Still me, don't let me steal

Sacred body with spiteful mind

Saintly prayers but sinful wishes

Stars oh stars and moon connive

Sneak a light, spare my sanity

Show a glow be my knightly sparrow

Sheer light, shift my strings

Set me free to safer ground

Standing stances and be still, again.


DANCING WITH DEATH


An anguished cry escaped from me

Visions blur in spite of the light around

A familiar voice within me speaks

Sending shivers to my whole body


I started to move away, away, away ...

I found myself repeating the rhythms

Stepping in, stepping out

Into the dark and into the light


My mind is blown while my heart is torn

Silence is the only noise I heard

Even the wind refused to make a sound

Leaving me alone in the claws of deafness


Tears pulsating, heartbeats racing

An exorcism is about to begin

A battle I'm taunted to win, I should, I wish

For if the last straw of sanity gives up, it is my end


Helplessly, I crawl back into the light

Gripping tightly to every faith I can hold

I closed my eyes and screamed

I rebuke, rebuke, rebuke!....


And I cheated death again.


MEMORY OF AUTUMN LEAVES


Pieces after pieces

Falling from atop

Been clinging for so long

Only to surrender

With one soft blow of the wind

The moment it drops

It will only be a memory

A blurry past, a story

That will be written

How it grew,

From tiny sprout

To growing its veins

Where full life flowed

How it almost died 

And chose to live

For two days more

Before the last sunset of autumn

Then bid goodbye

To the unfair world




ABOUT MARIA

Maria is a domestic helper in Hong Kong from the Philippines. She is a co-founder of Migrant Writers of Hong Kong. In 2021, she was one of Giving Tuesday's Starling Collective Fellow, a global leadership training platform that advocates global generosity. In her free time, she volunteers in various organizations in Hong Kong making her also one of the Spirit of Hong Kong 2023 nominees by Uplifters. She is a grassroot leader and writer who inspires her fellow domestic workers to become better versions of themselves and promotes women empowerment in the community through her writings.

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