Featured Poetry - December, 2024


ON AN ORANGE CARPET

By Pam Ski


Pete was ominously thin. 

Instead of sidling up to the

Sideboard to help himself to a choc,

He carried his own supply:

A supersize box of Paynes chocolate brazils.

When I commented on this, my

Mum said: "They're his favourites!"

I quite liked them too, but his grip 

On the box never wavered as

He carried them up and down 

The glaring-orange-stairs.


He wasn't always on the move.

Sometimes he sat on the couch,

Though its bolt-upright

Nature offered little comfort.

He was forced to steady himself on

The bare wood of the arms as

The loose cushions 

Shifted restlessly under 

His pared-down frame ...

The fabric was woven 

Into idealistic glimpses of

A medieval-looking life. 

And clashed horribly with the

Almost-neon-orange-carpet.

The decor wasn't 

Conducive with sanity. 


I did my best to

Listen to his gibberish,

But I cannot recall 

A single word of it.

It went straight to archive

With all the other stuff that

Did not stick. 

What I remember is that

None of us could

Stand it for any

Length of time. 

We took turns until 

It was our turn to escape ...

Gratefully ... up those 

Liberating-orange-stairs,

Two steps at a time.


My dad said, "We know he's ill ...

But it's Christmas and we don't want

Pete to be sectioned at Christmas."


I DON’T LIKE TO COMPLAIN

By Garima Sachdev Kapoor


I don’t like to complain,

but sometimes the weight sits heavy,

like a backpack overfilled,

pulling me down,

each struggle a pebble in my shoe

My feet wrestle for space.


In crowded rooms,

I smile and nod,

the world spins bright around me,

thoughts tangled like wired earpods,

words caught in my throat in conflict

Drowining in the what if.


This isn’t a call for pity,

not a search for answers,

It’s flickering under my calm

to wash away the gloss,

and breathe and exist

And be the me, I see


So sometimes I bewail

I feel like sharing my thoughts,

not seeking a fix,

maybe you hear me,

maybe we can meet here,

In the space between our stories.


IT WILL HAPPEN

Gary Shulman, MS. Ed.

(Dedicated to those who are struggling right now)


Some very kind folks are struggling right now

To make heads or tails of this monumental mess

Well I truly don’t have an exact answer for them

That sad reality I must verily confess

It hurts to see such good people stultified

Unable to break out of their gloom

Oh if only I had magic powers for real

To help their joy again blossom and bloom

All I can do is share my thoughts and poems

Share photos of the beauty of life

And hope they bring some peace and solace

To help relieve some of the stress and the strife

I will keep plugging away modeling kindness as well

Helping those who are vulnerable and in pain

It really doesn’t take much effort at all 

And there is so much loving goodness to gain

No, I don’t walk a mile in your shoes for sure

Your journey is very different than mine

But I promise to keep on keeping on

I will toast to your healing with vintage wine

And hope that one day, not so far, far away

You will be healed of that stress and that strife

And once again see the rays of bright sunshine

That yearn to envelop your unique precious life



DEPRESSION LESSION

dedicated to my daughter Leah

By Joan Kantor


My little girl sits

at the edge of my bed

with love and concern

in her eyes

as I try to look happy

but no longer can


and I watch us switch roles

as she gently strokes my arm

and tries to convince me to eat


She leaves my side

and quickly returns

with a chocolate shake

and tentative smile


Guilt infiltrates

the depths of my sadness


She’s taken on a burden

that’s impossibly large


What will happen

if she someday believes

she failed me


I’m not sure what she knows

so I try to explain

between tiny labored sips

but it’s impossible


How can she understand

what I can’t



SHARDS

By Jamie Gannon


My heart is in shards

Spread across the land 

To survive I will need to pick up 

A thousand pieces

So far I have picked up four


I have a new used car

And maybe I will drive

City to city

Picking up shards

Or maybe I will drive into

The sea

Come May

these shards will turn

On me

And I will end askew

looking for change 

Lost in the supermarket 


I would like to explore androgyny 

I would like to explore the feminine 

I would like a chance to find myself

But I am spread across the land


Let us pick up our shards and

arrange them in a bouquet defiant

and carry them

scattered though our selves may be—

Somehow unbowed and ebullient in the

faded sepia of our once selves



SOMETHING NEW

By Susannah Chatfield


One day I wake

to something new:

a lighter feel,

a change of hue.

I lift my head, 

it’s not so hard.

A sense of light, 

a tiny shard.

A flicker.

A flutter.

A glimmer.

I’ve had no hope

for quite some time,

yet here’s a flicker

of a smile.

And there’s a chance

I’ll be okay.

It’s good to see

another day.


DAYTIME BLUES EVENING HUES

By Nigel Pinhorn


Low mood

No food

Unmade bed

Scrambled head

Things are rough

Things are tough

Regret and fear

Ever near

Drained

Strained

Aching bones

Weakened pulse

Constant battle

Axes drawn

Slay the doubts

Breathe through the slowness

Force a smile

Effort

Pushing through

Start anew

Take a few steps

Put in the work

You’ve been here before

Open a new door

Smiling

Beguiling

Speak to people

Do some daily chores

Watch the world go by

Tire oneself out

And then rest

You’ve done your best

You’ve been blessed

With more than most

Watch the day fade out

Watch the mind quieten

Listen to the hushed sounds of night


UNTITLED

By Bella Hope Smith


"Everything is getting too much; I'm finding life really tough,

I feel like giving up; and just saying enough is enough,

How do I pick myself up when i'm feeling so depressed and low?

I'm stuck in a vicious cycle with no place to go,

I've lost all hope and just don't know what to do,

How can I change a negative to a positive point of view?

I am going to take the first step to change the way I feel; advice and support is what i'm going to seek,

Knowing that I need some help, shows that I Am Strong not weak."



JULIE DAYDREAMING

By Annette Towler

 

Life has not been kind to Julie

The rims under her eyes speak of late nights and thoughts

To disturb the common man

There is a twinkle in her eye as I reach out my hand

And she clasps it like a little girl clutching a new doll

We close our eyes and daydream together


A garden, a swing, and a lazy cat in the grass who beckons us

To come and listen to the birds that fly in the sky

Away from all the noise inside Julie’s head

The noise that comes from electrical miswiring, firing the wrong signals

The noise that comes from

The daily grind of surviving in a world that can be unkind


Come to the swing of joy and love Julie

Remember your human worth and dignity

Dream of a place where everything is valued

Dream of a life where you are free


ABOUT THE POEM:  "I am a mental health therapist and I wrote this poem to show how difficult it is for clients with psychosis to cope in a world that is unaccepting of the condition."


ABOUT ANNETTE: Annette was born in England and moved to the United States in the early 1990s. She enjoys her job as a therapist, and in her spare time she likes to run. She lives in an old house in Milwaukee, and have a sweet cat called Marsha.


HO HO HMMMM ...

By Boakesey


Childhood Christmases:

It snowed every single year – or so it seemed.

Santa always knew where to find me, bringing just

one simple gift, plus a tangerine and a piece of coal. It was

all I ever got, all I ever expected – and I was grateful.


Christmas lasted 12 whole days. No more, no less.

It didn’t run from August through to Valentine’s Day.

It was a religious festival, back then.

Instead of ancient pagan Yule, the Western world 

celebrated the arrival of the Christ child in His innocence.

And I celebrated, in mine.


By the time I reached double figures, innocence obliterated.

I’d got to know grief and trauma and childhood abuse.

Just like countless others. Far too many.

Things we were all too young to comprehend.

Things that continue to haunt us, forever.


Christmas was more and more commercialised

Parents conditioned to buy this, buy that, buy everything…

Children to want this, want that, want it all…

Purchases not needed. Gifts never used.

Paid for on the never-never, credit trap.

Spirit of Christmas subsumed by consumerism.


But this is not about ‘poor me…’, I promise.

Adult me, has never really grown up.

I’ve spent decades hiding from the world

as the C-word draws near.

Withdrawn into myself -

like that young lass on the telly

I’m conscious in a conch shell.


Every sung carol triggers memories.

Takes me back to where I dare not go.

I’ve rejected all the varied flavours of religion

All failed to save me in my times of need.

Now, I do my best to be good without a God.


Still, this is not about ‘poor me…’, 

I swear I’m not trying to spoil your fun;

Put a damper on the festive season.

I’m not a killjoy, grumpy Humbug or a Scrooge.

The opposite is true – enjoy yourselves!

But remember there are those, like me

Who cannot enjoy Christmas for good reason

And trying to force us only makes things worse – 

So, leave us be to heal our festive hurts.


This year, I’m trying something different.

I’m going to venture forth, to Ramsey town.

Find other lonely people, folk like me.

We will be alone. But alone together 

with our various challenges and fears.

It’s time to stop living in a past that’s full of pain

Let’s make new memories to treasure for years to come.

Look forward to the future and with Hope.


I wish for all of you the best of Christmas

And Blein Vie Noa for 2025.

Nollick Ghennal!


NOTE:

Blein Vie Noa – Happy New Year in Gaelg – Manx Gaelic

Nollick Ghennal – Happy Christmas


ARTIFICIAL EARTH

By Emma Follett


This is a safe place,

no one can get you

behind the blue paper curtain,

locked doors and high fences.


Trapped with an unoccupied mind

and a death wish.

Stalked by a killer,

outwitting the survival instinct.


Desensitised caregivers

challenge and encourage,

with their disbelief 

and brick walls.


"You're lucky to be here,

beds are scarce."

"There's nothing wrong with you,

and this isn't a hotel."


Restrained, dragged and dumped

on the street, with nowhere to sleep.

Hippocrates betrayed, unchecked power

tortures for sport.


HOW?

By Milena Dimitrova


How do you write about that which eats you alive

How do you describe in words the pain which burns your brain

How do you explain the debilitating prison of your mind

How do you even begin to talk about

The infinite weight pinning you to the couch, to the bed

How do you paint the picture of invisible chains 

Which hold you captive in the solace of your rituals

How do you let on

That every single facet of life is utterly horrifying 


How do you behave so that they understand

You are not a spineless human being who has surrendered control

No, you are fighting the biggest of battles

You can't NOT be in control


How do you let go and just be

When you can't separate the worry and the pain 

From that which you call "me"



OF TROUBLED MIND

By Anonymous


Of troubled mind and broken heart,

And craving death should play it’s part,

She sinks depressed in the abyss,

For the love of those so deeply missed,

Gone now the bonds of family ties,

They will not forgive and so she cries,

Each day the pain grows worse and worse,

This gift of life turned into curse,

I cannot help for as much as I care,

No help exists for a life so bare,

I try to shine that hopeful light,

That oft is soothing through the night,

But she cannot see as if struck blind,

By her broken heart and troubled mind.


I pray long and hard the passing of days,

Will ease her pain and clear the ways,

For she must struggle on and not give in,

To that tempting thought of that mortal sin,

I ask for help from those who should care,

Am ignored like a beggar at whom we all stare,

I understand not what delivered such hate,

From those who abandon her to her fate,

Yet she feels no anger no desire to blame,

She just wants them back they’re her inner flame,

Her reasons to exist have extinguished her fire,

Leaving her lonely and cold with just one desire,

To check out of this life no longer take part,

No more troubled mind no more broken heart.


ABOUT THE POEM: This is a poem I wrote back in 2020 after my wife attempted suicide for the 3rd time. It tries to put into words how she was feeling at the time, and my incredulity and frustration at my total lack of ability to help. My wife is thankfully still with us albeit still suffering with mental health issues.


INERTIA

By Nivedita Karthik


I sit down,

weighted by nothing.

The air, itself a leash, 

pulls me into the chair.


The to-do list glares at me

its edges curled up in a mocking grin.

 

But then, tasks don’t care about feelings, do they?


Inside me is a muted sort of gray,

the gray that paints everything 

in sameness.



I get up. The first step.

This first step isn’t at all strength.


I stand because motion is, sometimes, 

the only cure for stillness.


I move - 

a half-hearted shuffle

to meet the day.


Each task completed

is a brick laid unevenly.


But it is still a path. 


ABOUT THE POEM: "The generalized blah feeling, the one of a sort of mental fog that grips us and makes it hard to do want to do anything is something that I have felt quite often. And yet, I soldiered on, as not doing so may have led to a state of high-functioning depression. I have tried to capture this through this poem."


ABOUT NIVEDITA: Nivedita is a graduate in Immunology from the University of Oxford, and an accomplished Bharatanatyam dancer, has contributed to numerous poetry magazines and anthologies and has two poetry books to her credit.

Instagram: @its_nivedita_k


UNSPOKEN

A poem for those struggling to express

By Lana


Words form together 

Then they float away

Jumbled, uncertain

Sentences won't stay 


Attempts made to shout

Deep rooted thoughts 

Expression is lost

Silence reinforced 


Seconds tick slowly 

A minute has gone 

An hour, a lifetime 

The days just roll on


Pain etched on the face

Frustration untold

A life of silence

A world lived enclosed




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